I'm in class and yes I have to say that attending this class is enjoyable. I took 2 songs from Melissa, thanks man girl. I'm talking to Aric, Amos, Melissa and Shiyun about relationship, guess what everyone have different opinions regarding that one thing. The sad thing is Shiyun left but on the bright side I still have my the other 3 teammates to talk to.

Was on the phone with Dino talking about the plan tonight; the plan to visit GQ. One of my class mate asked Michelle whats my spoken language at home, isn't it obvious it is English. Maybe because I was cursing a little too much, while on the phone. Another classmate made a comment when she realized that I was the only son; "Wah die lah". It is puzzling seriously and I really wonder why.

I canceled tuition later to make my plans work, however I'm feeling the chills thinking about it. I've canceled thrice already this month, maybe I'm going to get sacked but on the contrary my tuition kid has an improvement in his studies after they hired me.

Heading back to do my work now... Bye

I'm really praying for you, hoping and praying that you'll get well. We'll be heading down tomorrow to visit you, chill and rest well for now. Long time since we met and I'm sure we got lots to talk about.

I'm at home waiting for Ren to come over to collect his laptop, Leon's at my place playing Dota with me. Having bad games, really feeling tired and fatigue. Haven slept since yesterday 6pm exactly 24hrs now. I'm making this entry because I'm fucking bored, wonder who'll be heading to school tomorrow. Who'll be in my team and will it be a good day?

I really want to thank God for helping me and I will thank him in advance for how he will help me. I've been getting good grades these few weeks even though I'm late. I've skipped like 3 times in 2 weeks, it's something worth talking about considering my atrocious attendance. Its an improvement which I still need to work on, if only I had woken up earlier. Sigh, Let's hope I can do it and graduate with my batch of students. Pray for me.....

Had dinner on Sunday with my parents and Ren, we went to Allson hotel for one of the most not-worth-it meal. We had shark fin, abalone, mushrooms, scallops and many more. Most of what we ate are considered delicacies for a typical Chinese family, however not for me. I'm really sick of all these delicacies after consuming too much of it during my stay at my cousin's house. It was a weekly affair for me until I moved out of the palace. My mom paid a couple of hundreds for these bullshits, the delicacies were not of top grade quality and the taste of it was not very fantastic. My cousin's maid could have done a better job with the food for half the price. But on the overall I guess it was quite a dinner considering it has been sometime since we ate out together as a family. The service was good and the deserts are nice ohh and yes have I mentioned that the chili sauce there is really good, other than; hmmm.

My favorite cousin Ann, was enlisted on Fri. We had our last day together on Thurs together with Leon (a.k.a Leyawn). The pics tell a lot for itself; we were at his place for the first time and we were just plain slacking. Not to mention cam-whoring, this is something which I don't think any guy would do? My mom was there as well, and we headed for dinner before going for our last Dota training. I guess we need to replace him with another member given the current state of the team.

I love you Ann, take good care of yourself while you are inside. Looking at your brother just now really made my heart sank, knowing whatever he is going through. I saw the eyes of my mom, it was filled with tears when Ren talked about his life in camp and how he wishes to down pes. My mom and I loves you and your brother. My favorite cousins indeed, we grew up together and memories in my heart always I will keep. Waiting for you to book out, let's go enjoyy.

Fri mor'n, a supposedly good day for any and everyone. However for me it just feels like crap, dam sien lah. First thing 1st my beloved cousin is going in army right now as I'm blogging this post. Second thing is due to the lack of sleep I had the previous night, it was a fair trade for the fun I had with my cousin and Leon at my place. Third thing is that I'm stoned in class and tired but guess what I've got to give tuition later. My student better be smart later or else I'm going to curse and swear under my breath again. Better get him some sweets to make sure he opens his ears and brains to learn. Did I mention his mom is hot!!. Everyone is doing their own things, wonder if it has anything to do with today's problem. Not for me cause I think I've sort of settled the resources. Feel kind of rude; didn't really bother about anything or anyone in class. Haven even had my first decent conversation of the day. Really tired I'm sorry ppl...

My fucking SD card is jammed, that is the right word to use for such unforeseen circumstances. Basically it just stopped me from uploading those nice pictures I had with my cousin and Leon. We hang out till late yesterday and they even crashed over at my place. Wonderful tonight.......

I'm dragged my post till now before publishing it, actually today is a perfect day in school for me today. Guess what Sam Teo has attended a talk, woo hoo wow. And also he did his work and contributed to the presentation. Attend school and talk is an equation to a perfect day in school. I think I need to go somewhere tonight. Geylang anyone? Ask your father.

The furthest distance between 2 person is not life and death, it's when I'm standing right in front of you and I can't tell you "I love you".

What a saying, it is seriously true. Think about it; if I like you and I want to love you but I can't say I love you and I can't love you, isn't that the furthest distance?

Leon see told me this saying just today and I thought it was something of significant value, something that is worth blogging about. An entry is made simply for this comment, Fucking solid saying.

Labels: Yours truely Sam Teo

The first thing is my FYP is over, its no longer Forever Your Project. Its simply Final Year Project, a big cheers to that. God has really helped me and pulled me through; he has saw me through yet again. Pics of my teammates


I'm so happy that everything is alright again for you bro, I know you love her lots lots. Wish you all the best in your relationship, and may the blessings be with you. You both are really good people and thus you both are meant for each other.

Haiyo back to reality; need to have another term of FYP, need to work hard for the remaining days of school and even harder next semester. Really got woken up by all the talks from my friends, seriously have to do it. I want to at least get this stage of life over and done with. I'm not sleeping tonight so I can get to school tomorrow. I've got to wear semi-formal tomorrow, my facilitator made a comment during the previous lesson which brightened my day. She said that I looked reallyy good, woo hoo. I thought I looked good as well what, I mean yeah I put in effort in dressing up ok (LOLxxxx, buay hiao buy). Anyway I'll see you guys again someday. Bye

I'm doing this in school, omg. I thought getting grades could be done even at this point of time, after praying and putting in the required effort. I had my FYP re-evaluation over and done with, pretty sure this time round. I didn't do any work today thanks to my presentation, I thought I didn't really do extremely well in the presentation but I still hope for a C. I'll blog later again. cya soon.....


Speak to the mountains and they will humble themselves, nothing is impossible.
Stand on the promise he made, with a heart full of faith, nothing is impossible.
Living in revival.

I got a call 4 days back from Thana's aunty, it was to me a surprise call. Guess what, it was an invitation to Thana's 21st birthday celebration. To my surprise, his aunty still has my number after such a long time. I went down yest to have a feast at the most infamous place on planet earth, Telok Blangah Blk 66. Oh gosh I have to say that the place really brought back memories, memories of me growing up as a child. I used to spend a lot of time with Thana when we were younger and I used to go over to his place often to play and 'fuck around'. We studied together since primary school, shit happened and......

He retained sec 4 and I went on to complete my days at St.Pat's but don't get me wrong I was not done with O'levels. Before he could even complete his sec 4, he was moved to Australia. Reason was because he owed people money, he was in big shit back then; few thousands of dollars. He is back for national service but he'll be leaving for Australia soon, going to miss him. Had a lot of fun growing up with him, although he stole my phone once.

Its really nice meeting you guys after such a long time, though it was just for a short time. I really wish I could make more time for you guys and trust me I will, I really do love you guys a lot. We grew up and each of us has our own commitments but I do believe that we can still be as close as we used to. The biggest fucker is the fucker that always refuse to turn up for gatherings, unless necessary.

Labels: Love everyone for now.....

I came to know something, this blog has been checked out by quite a lot of people. Maybe it is fate that brought you here, or maybe it is through recommendation that you've gotten this URL. I thought it was supposed to be a secret blog or otherwise a blog for people who are close to me to read. On the contrary it is good that people are reading my posts, I do enjoy writing and people who frequent this blog simply shows appreciation to my posts (a little buay hiao bai, xD lolx). I sometimes wonder who are reading my posts at which point of time, maybe its you, maybe its someone special to me, maybe its my friends or maybe its my family, just maybe. I still believe that the more the merrier, if you can find this URL.

I've never ever thought things would turn out like this, I thought things written here would have been quite safe. Maybe its just an assumption but I thought that it was a safe assumption. I'm sincerely sorry for the events that has taken place. However have you gotten your facts right? As in what's your interpretation of the posts and events that has happened? I guess maybe, just maybe you got the wrong perception of that particular event. I wish I could explain to you in person and maybe that would help, I'll tell you exactly what had happened. I merely quoted whatever has been said in our conversation, but the intention of whatever was quoted was not there. I blogged that post in my perspective towards that situation in a humorous way, maybe its the words used in the post. Don't worry so much, just give me a call and I can explain.

Labels: Sincere words from my heart

I guess these few days have been a reality check for me, I've told myself to wake up, however it simply lacks conviction. These few days has brought the reality upon me, to the extend of me having crumble under it many times whenever I thought about it. My FYP needs to be re-evaluated, attendance in school is really bad to the extend of me being destined to fail if I don't buck up now till next semester and my tests could have been better. It doesn't really help when I'm thinking about you all these while, I simply can't really get you off my mind. That sweet melancholic smile and that loud laughter never seem to stop replaying in my mind. What can I do to make you happy, what can I do to make you love me. Even right now as I'm blogging this, words that have been processed through my mind are like a moving picture without sound. I guess I do need to put in effort for school for this last 4 weeks, pray for me guys seriously. God really please help me for this last 4 weeks, help me to pull my GPA up and next semester for the graduation.

Met Malcolm, Sam and Stella for supper at jurong; we simply ate and left. What a supper but on the brighter side of things, I had a free ride home. Thanks man Mal, I love you. Its the weekends again, don't really know if I'm going to enjoy but yet have the same motivation after to work hard. At this very present moment I'm at Sam's place learning some code, really no mood to do it.

Dear God,

I really thought that we have kind of drifted ever since I've left. I guess it is a natural kind of thing considering the fact that we hardly communicate, this will take a toll on any relationship. Communication is the key to life and every relationship requires it because a relationship has a lifespan as well. I'm really ungrateful when I come to think of it, I only turn to you whenever I'm going through something in life. However when the tides are low and the problems are gone, I always let my senselessness get the better of my gratitudes in many areas. Today I'm back here again at your feet seeking forgiveness and repenting everything that I've done; although I feel awkward and hypocritical. You've always been there at my lowest point of time and you've never failed to see me through in everything that I do. I really do appreciate everything that you've done and given to me but on the contrary I do feel that I'm unworthy of it for things which I've done or failed to do. I know that you are going to see me through this time again and I hold that believe closely within my heart. I really do hope that things will be back like how it used to, I'm not saying this just so you would answer my prays. But you know my heart and desire. AMEN.

Things happens for a reason, and maybe we cannot seem to understand why. However I do believe that if God allows it to happen for a reason then he'll soar with you and see you through everything that is going to happen.

Isaiah 55:8;
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways my ways," says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 41:10;
Fear not for I'm with you; Be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

This is one of my favorite song which never fails me, it is really a sweet, touching and loving song.

Stand by everything You said
Stand by the promises we made
Let go of everything I’ve done
I'll run into Your open arms
And all I know

Chorus:
I love You more than life
I love You more than life

Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe

How can it be
You were the one on the cross that died for me?
Lifted for all our shame?
How can it be
The scars in Your hands are for me?
You are the king of all

1 more day to my FYP presentation, this is just 1 of the 2 FYP I'm supposed to do. Another thing to worry about is my grades due to my absentee. I really need to attend school for the upcoming 4 weeks, and get the desired grade to bring my GPA up.

Had a chat with Jin (I really love this name) last night, at times I still wonder why I still care for you even as a friend. Of course I know its nothing more than just friends and there is no qualms or queries to it. I've always felt that most of the time she is pretty ungrateful and honestly I've always got nothing much to say to her; even when we were much closer. I guess why we spoke last night was because I thought she was really pitiful and furthermore my heart always goes out to her whenever she has a problem, though I know the same objective lies with her. Partly was also because I really wanted to just say hi and asked if everything was fine and all. Cheer up yeah girl, I'm sure things will work out for you.

The quote of the day: "Will you ever ask me back if given a chance...."

I guess you should know that answer better than I do and thank you for getting over me. But I don't regret dating you, for everything you've done and given to me, thanks.

AlWaYs GeTtiNg OvEr YoU;
Was I not enough stimulation
Hit by a brake the other day
Just when I thought that I'm okay
You didn't like my conversation
I can't come up with something new
It doesn't really matter what I do
So here's my observation
You could never see it through my eyes
And I'm too tired to try

So don't call and say your coming back for me
Don't mean nothing
I'm always getting over you
And don't lie and say your over me
Don't mean nothing
I'm always getting over you

I got back at 12am today, on a Monday. WTH? Like let's think about it this way I've been back late this few days because of FYP. Can't imagine the amount of "effort" I've put into this shit, and yes you read it correctly "effort". Not many of my friends will believe me if i were to tell them that I'm really worried and kind of stress right now. Not just FYP but also for my school, my attendance is atrocious; to an extend it is fucking rubbish. I FUCKING NEED TO PULL UP MY SOCK. Wish me all the best for my FYP, people reading this please pray for me.

Bought my i-pod nano last Sunday, 2 days ago. Woo hoo I didn't realize how much I would appreciate an i-pod nano until I got it. I had one but I got another newer one, fantastic. Got it at this place FUNAN, through a friend; Shiyun. According to her, she is nice and yes indeed the service she gave was really good. Funny moments happened as well during my purchase (Shall not talk about that), dinner with her was canceled because she had to go with her friends. She asked me to go along but I decline because I didn't want to tag along, thanks though and I really appreciate it. I'm not anti-social ah my dear...

Haiz one mistake leads to another, troubles are brought upon to myself;
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

Today is a Saturday and it is supposed to be bright, however I don't know lah. I started my day going to Sam Lim's house to do FYP, heading to Mark's birthday immediately with my FYP teammates after that. We managed to reach Mark's place at 11pm, the cake cutting was at 12am. We were early I guess, are we? We ate a lot without presenting him anything, sorry Mark for not being able to get you a present (BUSY LAH). Thanks a million Mark for getting me those prawns and stingray which I loved. Right now my teammates are at my place doing the final touches of FYP and I'm blogging because I've finished my work. Tomorrow will be the day I've been waiting for since last Sunday. Heading to get my I-Pod and dinner with my favorite girl (classmate) from my sales module. She can ask me on msn when we chatted; you miss me right, when I asked her why she did not attend class on Friday. I then replied an honest answer I just missed that laughter, you got to hear it to miss it.

Had the worst conversation for the day; who the fuck are you? Arrh ok I'll cya tomorrow.

How lah am I petty or am I over sensitive? No mood going to play my guitar. Might not be meeting you already if you continue your attitude.

Had this conversation with him on msn:

(10:49 AM) Dino:	eh i malu lah
(10:49 AM) Dino:	don write i take bus lah
(10:50 AM) Sam Teo - School:	then read choon
(10:50 AM) Sam Teo - School:	what he say
(10:50 AM) Dino:	haha
(10:50 AM) Sam Teo - School:	got see your yandao face anot
(10:51 AM) Dino:	got
(10:52 AM) Dino:	i fucking handsome lah
(10:53 AM) Sam Teo - School:	of course
(10:53 AM) Sam Teo - School:	the yandao kia says he is handsome means he is
(10:53 AM) Sam Teo - School:	girl see sure wet
(10:53 AM) Sam Teo - School:	cfm
(10:53 AM) Dino:	cfm
(10:53 AM) Sam Teo - School:	escpcially the pic of u in crathes going down the stairs
(10:53 AM) Dino:	that one
(10:54 AM) Dino:	they finger themselves
(10:54 AM) Sam Teo - School:	lol
(10:54 AM) Sam Teo - School:	haha
(10:54 AM) Sam Teo - School:	cfm wet until cannot wet
(10:54 AM) Sam Teo - School:	that picture of u is so oragsmic
(10:54 AM) Dino:	correct
(10:55 AM) Sam Teo - School:	i should upload more pics of u
(10:55 AM) Sam Teo - School:	ptting u on sale
(10:55 AM) Sam Teo - School:	make some quick cash fromu
(10:55 AM) Sam Teo - School:	ppl sure call me to book u
(10:55 AM) Dino:	i realise we could make money
(10:55 AM) Dino:	girls should not get a dildo
(10:55 AM) Dino:	they should just get my pic
(10:56 AM) Sam Teo - School:	correct
(10:56 AM) Dino:	hahaha
(10:56 AM) Sam Teo - School:	and then
(10:56 AM) Dino:	eh got no one beside you right
(10:56 AM) Sam Teo - School:	nonop
(10:56 AM) Dino:	okk
(10:56 AM) Sam Teo - School:	i sitting one corner
(10:56 AM) Sam Teo - School:	fucking sad
(10:56 AM) Dino:	good

His theory on being an economically valuable person is also really very wonderful. It states that one should always be aesthetically valuable, increase your value with accessory like gold and branded stuff. He said if ever a robber comes to you for money; it simply shows that you are valuable. When the robber threatens you and you give him your valuables, then you'll be safe. You should be proud when you are robbed because you are valuable.

Just completed some touch-ups on my FYP, I still need to understand the codes. Anyway I'm not sleeping yet, can't sleep I guess. Smoked a lot tonight, at least say 10 sticks. Due to the commitments and all these bullshits, really dam sickening. Last 4 days before the ordeal is over.

""Had a chat with MR Cheang Choon Hock Kelvin Caleb earlier, I called to actually catch up with him. As usual, we talked about almost anything and everything under the sun. I told him that I'll be having dinner with someone this Sunday, prolly around Funan. He said " ah good lah we can meet up since I got work, pornstar also working there." I was like no lah cannot lah bro meeting someone lah must understand but I'm going there to get an i-pod first. He then told me I must meet you lah, long time ok 1 stick we smoke then I go work can?""

This is what you would call play-hard-to-get, solid lah really. Unfortunately only he gives a damn, and that's very sad. No one else in my circle of friend bothers to even entertain me nowadays. What to do only he gets victimized by everyone, poor sad fuck.
Comment for you bro Choon; When you are victimized, stay stucked. Don't bother cause you wouldn't be able to get out, especially with your GF around. Since she is away now, you better have your desired fun but don't get caught. Saturday city hall, nice place I guess with a beautiful chick? Remember yeah don't get caught.

This is how amazing it can get; woke up this mor'n and got an asthma attack followed by a headache, flue and cough kicked in soon after. How bad this can be? I skipped school today because of my conditions, I've already anticipated this day to come after feeling a bit uncomfortable for the past 2 days. Today's module is really amazing for me personally because I've skipped fucking amazingly 8 times. Shhh, enough about this.

Had a great talk with one of my twin cousins; we were talking about our future. LOL I can say that we really have great plans for the future but the problem is the present, because it is keeping us far away from our dreams and aspirations. I really do love him and his brother(twins), we basically grew up together and have always been close together. Our moms are twins as well and I kind of like the idea of going out with 2 sets of twins. So many things have happened within us but none of these has ever stopped us from being close, It is the twin bondage lah I'm telling you.

And yesterday was the day I was supposed to go Zouk, guess what happened? There was one classmate of mine who msn-ed me on monday asking me why Wednesday is going to be the time of my life(My msn nick at that point of time)? I felt like replying because of you, I think that would have made her day. My last touches on FYP kept me from heading down to Zouk. I can imagine my friends were all having fun while me the poor little boy have to stay at home and do my FYP. I was entertaining Dino while he was travelling to Zouk, the conversation we always had was something filled with laughter peace and joy. Talking to him can really turn my mood around.

The conversation of the day with him yesterday;
"A Sam entertain leh for awhile I in the bus lah going to Zouk, I scared lah later pai seh when I alight from the bus people see and recognize me lah". I replied "Don't worry lah you not big fuck people see then say hello loh" He then said this" How to lah u tell me you don't understand when I see that someone and that very same someone walks into members with me how lah he must be saying bloody poor fuck can come members but have to take bus". He then added" a good news lah I see got 1 fella alighting at zouk he must be another poor fuck like me". I can see from this conversation to why he always believed that being economically valuable is very important.

Today is Wednesday and today is the day I'm doing programming. Screwed up to the core, why have I not completed this module? Thanks to my absentee LoH!! Why LeHz, very sIeNz LeHz. Totally screwed up, regretted not putting in effort last semester thus now I need to repeat my module. All I can do right now is to delude myself into thinking only IF I do well for the next 5 weeks, my 8800 arte will come. Another delusion is for Sunday; the day I get my new i-pod, my clinique happy and my dinner with Shiyun. The itinerary for Sunday keeps me alive, can't wait for the new i-pod and my long awaited clinique happy.

Clinique happy: Wear and you shall be happy...

Should I head to Zouk tonight for the time of my life? I wonder if the crew is going tonight and if they are who are the crews for tonight. Long time no see u guys, hope tonight we can meet up man.

I have this so damn bad trait, my sleeping habit. I've skipped school so many times simply because I was unable to wake up. The feeling sux when you woke up after a good rest knowing that you've missed school. It feels like as though you've not maximized your day or maybe sometimes you'll feel like you've wasted your entire day. This is what I feel practically 3-4 times a week, I need a diagnoses for this problem. Really same shit different day, I really re-tune my body and be more disciplined. Lord Jesus really please help me out, I really need to wake up for school everyday.

I basically overslept for the most important part of the house warming, the "Lunch". Damn, this happened at 1pm and guess what I was doing at that time? I was sleeping, my gosh there goes my free lunch. Anyway I made my waydown to his place at around 4pm, AFTER LUNCH. On a serious note, I managed to see Kevin's beautiful, nice decorated house. Pics now as promised.
This is the girl; back view. She is camera-shy




I

headed down to Funan after which to get my Hard-Disk. I'm so sorry Shi Yun for not being able to get the Hard-Disk from you, I was late; sorry. Ok I know it sounds bad BUT on the contrary she didn't wait for me exactly, she works there!! I feel bad but not very bad, Hahhahahahahah. The most important thing of course is my Western Digital 160gb Hard-Disk, I don't want history to repeat itself ever again. Stupid com crashed and my stuffs were all gone in an instant. I'll make it up to you one day girl. I promise.

Those were the days, the sweeter times. On the left we have Debbie and on the right we have Kevin Koo. Fuck lah no pics of Shi Yun. I'll see what I can do.




I'll be heading to Kevin Koo's house tomorrow, for of course his house warming. His dad sold their old place for 505k and got this new place for 350k(excluding the 60k renovation). That simple equation works out to be a positive 95k. WTH, simple easy 95k. I wish I was Phillip Koo(Kevin's dad). Anyway I might be heading down to Funan after the house warming to meet this girl named Shi Yun. Not a date of course, but in any case I guess everyone will consider her. And of course I wish It was a date but unfortunately it isn't, ok maybe just not good enough for me. xD joking, it will always be my honor and privilege to date her. I'm going down to get a hard disk from her. Pics and more pics tomorrow, ok? Promise, for now nites nites.

Alright everyone I'm back after a 1yr absence. Exactly on this day a year ago was the last you've read on me. Currently my blog is still undergoing some construction but with the help of Leon's friends Eugene and Cecilia, I'm sure it will be a re-furbished place.

Labels: Sam Teo

Name: Sam Teo
Age: 21
School: St.Mich's, St.Pat's, CHEC and RP
Birthday: 26/02/1987
About Me: Hi Sam here, cheers to anyone reading this!!!

Leyawn

Jin

Kevin Koo

Choon

Mark Ng

Michy

Hope to enroll in a degree course soon

Graduate

Any kind soul out there?:D

Everyone out there who loves me as much as I love them

Close friends (You guys know who you are)

My family

:D