At times how I just wished that I could have the same amount of space as I used to have before taking up this commitment. I guess at times how I wished I can just do my own things by myself, Just time alone or with my loved ones(friends and family). I mean just at times. I know you love me alot, as much as my friends or maybe even more than them. I just keep thinking that your degree of love you have for me has came to this point because of whatever that has happened. Love blossoms, I know(We all need time to love that someone, not just as lovers but as friends as well. Right?) but this is like the extreme case of such a situation. I'm really feeling more and more like the above described especially when I'm thinking about what had happened. I know I cannot just give everything up just like that; it is a responsibility, a cause and a relationship(mind you). Maybe I might just need a break or something like that. Sometimes I mean sometimes I just wished that you could treat me like how my friends and my dad treats me. I don't think you know how as it is not either your forte or your characteristics. They would just allow me to do whatever I want(even though they know it's not advicesable) but they are there for me at the end of the day when I fall. My friends and I have not met up as frequently as used to, I'm making the effort now guys. I love you all, every single on of you. They again allowed me to drift away but when I went back to them, they welcomed me back with arms wide open. This really reminds me of a parable in the bible(The prodical son in the books of matthew). I have to say that I really appreciate everything everyone of you has done for me. I Sam Teo will always remember for as long as I live(I have quite a good memory.Lol).