Nearly worn a green hat. Thank God I trusted my 6th sense
I guess after whatever that has happened, I don’t think I can trust, care and love you like I used to. I am absolutely disappointed by your actions. When a vase is cracked, no matter how you mend it, the cracks will still surface. I feel like an absolute fool when the incident happened, I don’t bloody understand what were you thinking when you carried out your actions. What went through your mind, what were your thoughts and what or how you felt? I have no idea about any of those above. You refuse to talk about it whenever I asked for clarifications, this is not going to help but who cares I mean you asked me to promise you never to rack up the past. I have not put in the same amount of effort as I used to anymore, maybe not at this point of time. Time will heal all wounds, forgive and forget, and maybe even not to get caught in the past but honestly how many of you really believe in that? We can forgive and we can move on but how many of us can forget? Not at least for me though. I will always remember what had happened, not because I’m petty or resentful but rather because I like to think about things thoroughly. I just don’t understand this; if you were willing to let me go or at least your actions says so, why bother keeping me now when I wanted to leave? Or is it just that you want the better of both worlds? When you know I wanted to leave real bad, you wouldn’t, you loved me too much? Why all this happened then in the first place. The most frustrating thing is that you can still question the things I do, the things I say and question my prerogative about this whole saga. The best part of all is that I can get emotionally blackmailed, what the hell went really wrong? You were scary; I swear you scared the living hell out of me when we spoke. Where was the lovely person I once knew, where was the bubbly person I once loved? You have changed a lot during this period of time for me but do you think that’s what I really want? Nowadays you keep a lot of comments or suggestions to yourself and you refuse to vent your frustrations at me, that’s really wonderful, I love it. I don’t know if you are afraid because I might rack up the past or you have changed to be submissive to me? But whatever the case is, just don’t repress every dam thing inside, that’s not what I want. You jolly well know that there’s still that little care, love and trust always waiting for you to fall back on. I’m still willing to try, I have forgiven you because everyone makes mistakes but remember this is not a reason or an excuse for you to continue your mistake. Am amendment has to be made and I’m patiently waiting for that to happen.