I'm really sorry for what had happened last night. I was really fustrasted and my reaction towards you was really uncalled for. I remebered you running away in tears after you said that you didn't want to see me again, because you were upset with me for shouting at you and saying things which would be better off not said. I tired to find you and when I did, you told me you didn't have time to talk and so I walked away in anger, after telling you that I have made my decision. To me, I felt like we were strangers again. You called me back and I came back from my walk towards the nearest location where I could have gotten food. When I got back, you were still upset and hurt from things that I've said to you and on the other hand I'm still quite frustrated by what had happened. I told you sacastically that it was entirely my fault that things has reached its climax and that was there anything I could do to make you happy one last time before I make my leave and never to return. I even told you that if a slap on my face would make you happy, I would galdly allow it to happen as it will end everything there and then sweet. Instead you clung on to me like a kualur bear like always and you asked me a very intriguing question; are you really gonna leave me? I told you to get off me and I shouted really loud at you when you refuse to comply. I said" can you get the fuck up and sit down here, can you fucking stop whinning". You asked me what was I waiting for and I told you I was waiting for snow to fall in Singapore and money to drop from the trees. I saw the anguish when I shouted those words to you, you left without saying a word. You returned and asked me again but I just couldn't bring myself to give you an answer after I saw how you were crying and whilling loudly. You even felt like puking when you were totally upset and hurt by all those actions and words of mine. I have never wanted this to happened, not even in my dreams. It was just a moment of fury that resulted in this, things are back to normal though and I'm really happy with that for now. It really goes to show how much you love me, I've been really blunt with my words. I guess only my really good friends(Brothers) can and have accepted and have not taken it to heart for things that I've said to them.